Day 44 - prayer request

 Im going to do something I dont think Ive ever done in the 11 years of writing the blogs - take one whole post to ask you all to pray for something very specific

Tomorrow (Friday) Im going to go and pray with someone who Im pretty sure needs deliverance. This is really important. The person concerned has been struggling with their identity (not gender identity) for about a year, believing all sorts of lies about who they are and their value to Jesus, their family and the world.  A negative spiral is now becoming a suicidal spiral - and whilst I genuinely dont believe that all mental health issues have demonic roots Ive been pretty sure for a while that this one has.

The issue thats going round in my head is to do with my Messiah complex 😂😂

In my head I am pretty confident about going into a deliverance situation - I know what to do and I absolutely know beyond a shadow of a doubt that no amount of darkness is a problem for Jesus. This person is a Christian, so we are talking oppression not possession here.  The reason Im going on Friday is that a while ago I got the chance to pray with this person and I completely missed the mark.  I prayed some nice general 'healing' prayers and when I left the room I was kicking myself that I didnt address the elephant in the room.  I know, I know, it probably wasnt the right time etc etc.  But I dont want to do the same this week and walk away feeling that I didn't do what I think Im supposed to do.  She is in real pain. I dont want to leave her there and I definitely dont want to make it worse

The thing is that theres a very fine line between being confident in Jesus's ability to reach down into the miry clay and lift someone totally out of their stuckness, and thinking that I can rescue them.  I really really want to rescue them.  Over the past months Ive watched them battle and lose. Despite input from doctors, medication, amazing family support, this is getting worse not better.  If God doesn't do something its hard to see how this is going to be resolved and Im not about to allow the enemy to hunt her down and take her to that place Jesus was at in the garden where He was overwhelmed to the point of death. No no no.   I know God could use me to bring deliverance.  But I also know its not me who will do the rescuing.  I dont want to get in the way.    I need to be sensitive to Jesus, to her and to whats going on spiritually, bold in going for it, but not caught up in my own anger at whats been going on or motivated by my desire to be her rescuer. Im not sure if Im explaining it very well but I hope you can see the dilemma and pray for me accordingly.

(and yes, I can perfectly see that my dip in mood over past days might very well have something to do with all of this)

On a practical note, theres quite a large chance that she wont let me pray for her.  I know that her heart will be saying yes, but the lying influences which are dictating to her will probably tell her to hide and to refuse.  So please pray that God covers all of this and hides her and me under the shadow of His wing where the enemy cant get wind of the plan to get her free.  Thanks so much. Every prayer will really make a difference.  I'll let you know how it goes.